Ironic message

Way to often I wake up to read, then pray, then read something else, then another thing and then think about what I should do, should I pray again, maybe I'll journal, then I'll feel like I should pray again.

Who was leading those thoughts? Me or Christ?

Stop expecting other people's writings, even your own journalling to do the trick.

The only peace and Joy that will be true and found today is when you go to Jesus and stay there with Him.

Finding your day spiraling downward way to often and seeing yourself trying way to hard to stay positive?

Are you living a so-called christian life? Or do you have a real relationship with Him?

I know somedays I do and others I don't, I just thought I did.

What do you believe?

How often do we reevaluate our thoughts and beliefs?  Have your beliefs changed over time?  How come?  


Recently God has given me a really awesome pen pal from our youth group.  He loves to write back and forth.  This morning I wanted to challenge him with a few questions about what He believes, and same goes for you today.  I want to give you a few questions to ponder on, and really evaluate what you believe.  Maybe the correct answers pop out, but even still are they really what you are believing throughout your day?


If you would like to be apart of ongoing emails with me I would love to be apart of your life.  You can email me your answers and what you truly think, and I will do my best to help you by pointing out scriptures to you and pray for you.   You can email me at danweaver.pa@gmail.com anytime.


If you aren't really interested in emails you could also comment anonymously at the bottom, I am interested to read your thoughts and pray for you.


Here's the email.


So this morning I was wondering if you would like to be challenged by a few questions about God and let me know what your thoughts on them are, if not thats ok too.

And be as honest as possible.  Expound on your answer too if you could. Also, you may have another answer than the choices I gave, feel free to answer what it is you truly think. I just want to get to know you better and help you see Jesus as He really is.

1.  What do you think God thinks about you? 

a)  God thinks that I'm causing a lot of problems in my family and friends' lives.

b)  God truly loves me and made me as I am and put me in every situation I'm in for a reason

c)  God thinks about me only occasionally, and when He does He thinks I need to get my life together.
d)  It depends on the day, some days I think He loves me and others I think He's frustrated with me.

2.  What do you think about life?

a)  Life is a gift that God has given me everyday.

b)  Life is a struggle through every situation I find myself in.

c)  Life is a what I make it, so it really depends on what I determine myself to do in life.

d)  Life is full of ups and downs and I can never get it together.

3.  Which describes your thoughts about Jesus?

a)  The story of Jesus is a great story that I need to study a lot more to fully understand and then find that I believe it or not.  It didn't really happen exactly as it is written in the Bible.  (People changed the story a little over time.)

b)  Jesus really lived and walked on the very earth I live on, He was God's Son, He has always been (even before creation) and He came to earth to be a human under obedience to His Father and came to share a message of love, hope and freedom to the whole world that only through Him we are saved if we trust in Him, live for Him and believe that when He died He fully forgave us for all we have ever done.

c)  Jesus came, died, rose from the dead, but I don't think he really died for me, I just say He did to make myself feel good through my day.
d)  Jesus is a story that over time people have convinced others to believe in, and is a huge conspiracy.

4.  Why did Jesus say that He must leave in order for another to come and counsel us? John 14:15, 16:7

a)  He wants you to stare at the sky for the rest of your life, looking for someone to come down.

b)  He wanted to give to you a the gift of His Spirit to counsel you though all areas of life.

c)  God likes to play practical jokes and make us question everything we do.
d)  I don't know

5.  Who is the Holy Spirit (Holy Ghost, Counselor) to you?

a)  He is someone I haven't yet grasped enough to say I have living inside of me.

b)  He is a metaphor Jesus Spoke of for those around His day and age, but times changed.  It's not for us today.

c)  He is the Spirit of the one true God, who lives inside of those who trust in Him.  He helps me in every situation, He guides me through uncertain times, He encourages me when I am confused or frustrated, He is the Spirit of the One true God and He lives inside me.

d)  The Holy Spirit lives in pastors and godly friends and speaks to us only through those who He chooses.

6.  Can the Holy Spirit talk to you?

a)  I think that the Holy Spirit speaks to me all the time, He helps me and helps me feel loved, at peace, joyful, encouraged...

b)  I think the "Holy Spirit" doesn't apply to today, because I've never heard Him in my life.

c)  The "Holy Spirit"  isn't anything other than a metaphor of how we should listen to our conscience more.

d)  Yes, but I haven't prayed enough to believe He can talk to me.

7.  Do you think you will go to heaven when you die?

a)  I hope so, it depends on how good of a life I live by the time I die.

b)  If God judges my life as good, yes, if He judges me and sees more bad than good then no.

c)  I believe Jesus died for me and there is no doubt I will go to Heaven.

d)  I would like to think that I will, but there is no sure way to know.

With each answer you can just put for example: 1b, 2a and then write why.  Be sure to be honest!  Think critically about what you truly believe and think.  And if it takes more time than needed you can answer each question 1 per week or day.  Hope these questions help you examine how you think about Jesus.  He Loves You.  Hope you have a great week!  You can also ask your friends or family with what they believe.

Reexamined lately?

Late last night I got angry.  I snapped at Jodi, I closed up and went into my bomb-shelter mind/sphere.  I stopped all rational thoughts towards allowing myself to evaluate where my change in mood was coming from.  I stopped listening to positive thoughts and lost control of what a negative thought was.  I was listening to what I knew as my enemy, but wasn't choosing to dismantle a bomb I knew full well how to stop.    


The truth is I began to feel something come over me and felt like a failure.  I was believing that I was failing at being a friend to friends, failing at being a husband and just flat out failing at living the way I should.


Jodi and I were about to read "Forgotten God" by Francis Chan and then fall asleep, but instead I began to get attacked and then lash out of fear that the words I was hearing were true.  But they weren't.  I  hear the words often.  Maybe you do to?  


"You're a failure at everything you put your mind to"
"You thinking you do ministry for the Lord, but you hurt more than help."
 "You have no calling or purpose, and who really does or has ever found it?"
"The people you consider friends don't call you their friend."
"You are not living as if Christ lives in you."
"You call Him Lord and Master, but do not live like that is true."
"You're attempts at doing anything good is only for personal gain, and you think you're a Christian?."
"Why are you even here?"
"You need to get away, become a recluse, and then things will settle and get better."
   (these are only a few)


And in those lies, I heard over all of them the loudest one, "No one loves you."


Sadly, these words come far to often.  Does this sound like your mind ever?


As I laid there red hot with anger and contemplating my whole existence I somehow slipped in, with strength that was not my own, the words "help me Lord".   And through the noise of a battle zone, trapped in the middle of enemy lines and curled up in a ball of despair I heard Him speak.  At first I felt betrayed and deeper frustrated because what I heard wasn't silence and then peace, but instead a question or riddle.  I heard, "who are you pleasing (living for)?"


Sometimes I put myself into the enemies hands because I am putting my trust in neither side.  Sometimes I am telling God that I am still needing to see Him work in my life so that I can find true peace in Him as my savior.  Sometimes I even keep God in a box and only listen if He responds by my demands.  I expected silence and safety, but last night the noise continued because He wanted  to help me see that I need to truly trust the One who is saving me from the enemy.  


Last night I wrestled with that riddle till I fell asleep.  But right before I fell asleep I wrote to two close friends, "pray for me because I'm feeling spiritually attacked".  Because in those hard times, we need help.  Then through the mind-bending riddle I found out who I am living for.  I wrote down "I'm addicted to trying to make people happy, (being a people pleaser) sometimes if I feel I can't make them happy I feel worthless, hurt and want to give up. I'm sorry God, I've forgotten my first love."


So this morning, I reread these words, contemplating the meaning of them and if it were true, because sometimes late at night I can write something down and later realize it made no sense at all.  But this time it was true.  I am a people pleaser.  I looked up what it meant and found this site, People Pleasers, and checked all of the criteria off by how I live.  


I live way too often thinking about how you or someone else may think of me.  Even now, as you read I could be curious if you like this? But why, that's not why I write!  I am not even a writer, and I got straight C's through every english/writing class I've ever had!  


[I write because I have felt the Lord wants me to, not because I want to make anyone think I am anyone special, or to make money or to become famous.  I don't make money, I am a nobody and only want to be a nobody and I definitely do not want to get swept up in becoming anyone special or famous.  Plus there is no possible way my writings can accumulate to anything other than a fellow Christians daily life and that's all I want this to be.]


Back to the point.  
I live for man's approval and I need to only worry about how the Lord sees me.  As easy as it is to type those words, it is not as easy to understand them.   How come I can agree with what that means, but never implement what it means into mental and spiritual proactive actions against this daily attacking enemy? =In constant commune with Christ.


I forget that I am weak and He is in control and that I MUST rely on Him always and He is the only one who can give me Strength, give me Peace, can truly love me, give me courage, give me meaning, give me rest...and lastly He is the only one that I want to live for.


I have been convicted by how I live for others approvals.  I forget who I am here for.  Do you too?  I listen to lies and then begin to believe them.  I get lost and caught in traps.  I throw my hands up and say I deserve to hear all the lies because I do think them sometimes.  I forget that I was adopted by the One and only God of the Universe, who is loving, when I finally put my trust in Him.  I forget that He will not take me back to the orphanage.  I forget that He will not punish me harshly.  I forget that He went through a huge process in order to save me from the family I was in.  I forget that He will never say "don't come home", or "you've hurt my family too much", or "I no longer want to be your Father."  He will always be my Father.  Now how am I going to live my life?  Grateful, stubborn, apathetic or unsure of my adoption?  Am I going to live more for the people around me who offer me nothing or for the One who did all He could to take me in and promise me a life that I would love forever? 


The Bible says a lot about people pleasing, rather than God:

Galatians 1:10 For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.

Colossians 3:23 Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men,

James 4:4  You adulterous people! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.

The list goes on: Ephians 6:5-9, Matthew 6:1-34, Galatians 3:28, 2 Timothy 4:3-4, Matthew 6:33...

It also says this:

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Everybody goes through rough times. Finances, marriage, work, kids, family, emotional stress, the list goes on and on. None of God's children are immune to life's troubles, and God often uses those times to test us, refine us, and bring us closer to him.

Jodi always points out James for a good source of encouraging Bible verses. I guess James got her through some rough spots before she met me (not that I solve all her problems now...quite the opposite I must say!)

James 1:2-3 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

WHO HAVE YOU BEEN LIVING FOR LATELY?




PRAY AND ASK FOR MORE HELP FROM JESUS.

'this life we live'

Heaven by faith, grace by adoption.

Fathered by forgiveness and loved by my friend.

Given life by patience and forever longed for.

Spoken of light in darkness and promised safety.

In the face of a treacherous storm we are given

a hand by the one who made the wind blow.

Born with a will to strive for our hearts desires.

Reborn by our choice to give our life to Him

in the face of a world determined to live

against the King of the land.

For He knows all things about Himself,

and all things we think we are.

But loves us still by our hearts folly

and loose grip of Him and with

open arms He takes us into His arms 

every time we desire our gain stronger than His.

For Gods' glory and the sacrifice He

made for us is worthy of praise forever, 

and forever I will praise; 

After living this life striving after all

that is pure and pleasing to my Father in Heaven.

Hearing whispers of truth and writing them down can really catch your attention.

a distant whisper

When the young prophet Samuel heard the voice of God calling to him in the night, he had the counsel from his priestly mentor, Eli, to tell him how to respond. Even so, it took them three times to realize it was God calling. Rather than ignoring the voice, or rebuking it, Samuel finally listened.

In our modern, pragmatic world we often have no such mentor, so we do not understand it is God speaking to us in our heart. Having so long been out of touch with our deepest longing, we fail to recognize the voice and the One who is calling to us through it. Frustrated by our heart's continuing sabotage of a dutiful Christian life, some of us silence the voice by locking our heart away in the attic, feeding it only the bread and water of duty and obligation until it is almost dead, the voice now small and weak. But sometimes in the night, when our defenses are down, we still hear it call to us, oh so faintly-a distant whisper. Come morning, the new day's activities scream for our attention, the sound of the cry is gone, and we congratulate ourselves on finally overcoming the flesh.

Others of us agree to give our heart a life on the side if it will only leave us alone and not rock the boat. We try to lose ourselves in our work, or "get a hobby" (either of which soon begins to feel like an addiction); we have an affair, or develop a colorful fantasy life fed by dime-store romances or pornography. We learn to enjoy the juicy intrigues and secrets of gossip. We make sure to maintain enough distance between ourselves and others, and even between ourselves and our own heart, to keep hidden the practical agnosticism we are living now that our inner life has been divorced from our outer life. Having thus appeased our heart, we nonetheless are forced to give up our spiritual journey because our heart will no longer come with us. It is bound up in the little indulgences we feed it to keep it at bay.

(the sacred romance 2,3)